smonikkims Brand Re-Introduction: Ultimate
Aug 16, 2020 5:16:52 GMT -5
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Post by KeyGlyph on Aug 16, 2020 5:16:52 GMT -5
Welcome back, smonikkims !
I wonder if a lot of folks confront this line of thinking in their early twenties like we did. For me, it was because this was the first age at which I really grasped that my time was limited. Until then, the narrative of growing up had been about endless possibilities. In your twenties, though, suddenly you realize, "Oh crud, it's a branching path from here on out and now I actually have to make choices that are going to preclude other choices!"
Which is why I also wholeheartedly endorse your spirit of adventure. Once it's reasonable and safe, I hope you go on your journey and have a blast. Choose that path while it's still an option open to you!
I've come to terms with the fact that my projects - writing and otherwise - may never come to fruition, and that laziness of mine is still on the list of things to go, but they're still important to me in my head and in my life, and they're still there, in the distance, but within reach.
Right around when I was 23 I also embraced the fact that I had more aspirations than I could possibly achieve, and made peace with the fact that this wasn't a personal failing. The realization came about in the most mundane of ways: I had always thought it would be super cool to get into making my own costumes, and had saved a giant (and heavy) bag of old clothes and fabric scraps over the years for the moment I would suddenly blaze aflame with the inspiration to buckle down and learn. Time went by, and those (heavy) scraps just sat in the closet. I distinctly remember the day I looked that bag in the eye and said to myself, "You know what... I will never be this person. I can't force myself to be interested in this hobby, and I shouldn't want to. There are so many other things I'm into instead. I gotta let this bag go." It was so. Freeing!
I also think there's a lot to be said for having projects in your head that make you happy just to mull over. The fact that they don't get made into tangible results doesn't mean they lose their worth. Dreaming can be its own point and purpose.
I wonder if a lot of folks confront this line of thinking in their early twenties like we did. For me, it was because this was the first age at which I really grasped that my time was limited. Until then, the narrative of growing up had been about endless possibilities. In your twenties, though, suddenly you realize, "Oh crud, it's a branching path from here on out and now I actually have to make choices that are going to preclude other choices!"
Which is why I also wholeheartedly endorse your spirit of adventure. Once it's reasonable and safe, I hope you go on your journey and have a blast. Choose that path while it's still an option open to you!