smonikkims Brand Re-Introduction: Ultimate
Aug 12, 2020 7:23:39 GMT -5
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Post by smonikkims on Aug 12, 2020 7:23:39 GMT -5
I don't know when I last visited, but this has been my longest absence yet. I've been known to pop in and out of this community, for sure, but this time I wasn't even sure if I'd come back - not for any particular reason, really. I changed computers and considered - heavily considered - just wiping all of my Petz stuff (I left Milk a long while ago and kept a hold of my Babyz things for a 'just in case' moment, but finally deleted all of that after I changed computers) - but, beside my new computer on my desk is a little USB that has my crew on it, and it's still there - I haven't reinstalled yet, I might not even do it today, but I decided it's calling me, and it'll never stop.
Truth is I was afraid of coming back after such a long time away because I was scared that this time, the community would be dead when I came back. And I was wrong, yet again - and from a glance it looks like it hasn't changed a bit! The friendly faces I remember are still all there in the recently online list... It's incredible. I'm sure there are things I'm missing that have changed, but nothing that would instantly make me walk out the door out of being overwhelmed. This always happens in this community. I have doubts, and then I'm always welcomed home just the same.
Since it's been such a long time this time, I figured I'd give a little bit of a life update along with this one. We have the obvious situation going on in the world but it hasn't really changed my living situation or anything like that - I've been working through it and still have the exact same job. I'm finally ready to move on though, and it is the pandemic that is currently preventing me from doing that. I want to do something daring and bold for the first time in my life. I'm turning 23 on Sunday, and I have barely done a thing besides work and save money. To tell the truth, right now, I just want to quit my job and take off somewhere remote on my savings, maybe meet someone, see where life takes me, like you might see in a soap character's last episode. I've spent so long thinking that kind of thing just doesn't happen in the world, but it must. I want that. But I'll wait until it's responsible to do that; I only work at a supermarket, but it gave me a sense of duty when things were at their worst, and I want to see that through to the end of this mess. Then maybe I'll have earned it.
I took a long look at myself months ago. I started with minimising my possessions, dedicating myself to appreciating what I had, and striving for self improvement in every way I could think of. I've come to terms with the fact that my projects - writing and otherwise - may never come to fruition, and that laziness of mine is still on the list of things to go, but they're still important to me in my head and in my life, and they're still there, in the distance, but within reach. My focus has been on my body lately, though. I'm weighing in again on Saturday, but last weigh-in my loss totalled 6st 6lbs (90lbs/40.8kg). I'm in the healthy weight range for my height for the first time since I was a very young child. I do obsess over it and I wish it didn't have to be that way, but I'm currently in the zone of preferring that over going back to the way things used to be. I'll find a balance eventually.
On a less serious note, Animal Crossing came out on Switch and I have been focusing on that, and actually I rejoined TBT after a very long time away from that community also, and it's that feel that reminded me and made me pine after this one again. I suppose I've been very much active in this general sphere, just behind the scenes.
That's about all I can think of that I have to update you on. I can never promise whether I'll stick around for many days or weeks after coming back from any of my breaks, but you've reassured me once again that this community never fades and will always have a door open.
In an attempt to make this stay a longer one, though, I've decided to keep my presence focused on RKC rather than trying to keep up with Whiskerwick at the same time. Absolutely no shade towards the lovely people running that forum, but trying to spread myself too thin with Petz related stuff is always a contributing factor to my disappearances. I'll also try to stay away from showing and adopting out for the time being, even though I know I have a few show results to collect, logs to update and still that slog of Petz in my adopt out folders hanging out on that USB. The important thing right now is going to be just showing my face, taking my time, and eventually, reuniting with my crew... Assuming they survived. It's a really cheap USB. Let's not think about that.
It's good to be back.
Truth is I was afraid of coming back after such a long time away because I was scared that this time, the community would be dead when I came back. And I was wrong, yet again - and from a glance it looks like it hasn't changed a bit! The friendly faces I remember are still all there in the recently online list... It's incredible. I'm sure there are things I'm missing that have changed, but nothing that would instantly make me walk out the door out of being overwhelmed. This always happens in this community. I have doubts, and then I'm always welcomed home just the same.
Since it's been such a long time this time, I figured I'd give a little bit of a life update along with this one. We have the obvious situation going on in the world but it hasn't really changed my living situation or anything like that - I've been working through it and still have the exact same job. I'm finally ready to move on though, and it is the pandemic that is currently preventing me from doing that. I want to do something daring and bold for the first time in my life. I'm turning 23 on Sunday, and I have barely done a thing besides work and save money. To tell the truth, right now, I just want to quit my job and take off somewhere remote on my savings, maybe meet someone, see where life takes me, like you might see in a soap character's last episode. I've spent so long thinking that kind of thing just doesn't happen in the world, but it must. I want that. But I'll wait until it's responsible to do that; I only work at a supermarket, but it gave me a sense of duty when things were at their worst, and I want to see that through to the end of this mess. Then maybe I'll have earned it.
I took a long look at myself months ago. I started with minimising my possessions, dedicating myself to appreciating what I had, and striving for self improvement in every way I could think of. I've come to terms with the fact that my projects - writing and otherwise - may never come to fruition, and that laziness of mine is still on the list of things to go, but they're still important to me in my head and in my life, and they're still there, in the distance, but within reach. My focus has been on my body lately, though. I'm weighing in again on Saturday, but last weigh-in my loss totalled 6st 6lbs (90lbs/40.8kg). I'm in the healthy weight range for my height for the first time since I was a very young child. I do obsess over it and I wish it didn't have to be that way, but I'm currently in the zone of preferring that over going back to the way things used to be. I'll find a balance eventually.
On a less serious note, Animal Crossing came out on Switch and I have been focusing on that, and actually I rejoined TBT after a very long time away from that community also, and it's that feel that reminded me and made me pine after this one again. I suppose I've been very much active in this general sphere, just behind the scenes.
That's about all I can think of that I have to update you on. I can never promise whether I'll stick around for many days or weeks after coming back from any of my breaks, but you've reassured me once again that this community never fades and will always have a door open.
In an attempt to make this stay a longer one, though, I've decided to keep my presence focused on RKC rather than trying to keep up with Whiskerwick at the same time. Absolutely no shade towards the lovely people running that forum, but trying to spread myself too thin with Petz related stuff is always a contributing factor to my disappearances. I'll also try to stay away from showing and adopting out for the time being, even though I know I have a few show results to collect, logs to update and still that slog of Petz in my adopt out folders hanging out on that USB. The important thing right now is going to be just showing my face, taking my time, and eventually, reuniting with my crew... Assuming they survived. It's a really cheap USB. Let's not think about that.
It's good to be back.